Well, my right boob pain is 99% gone - that's good. And although it is CD18, my normal cyclical boob pain has not started up yet. Sadly, I happened across a link with cyclical boob pain and DAIRY.
Oh, so sad. Woe is me. I loooove my goat milk/cheese/yoghurt. I am trying this month to not have any. Sigh. Well, except for this raclette party we're going to on the weekend. I went out an bought some goat cheese that is suitable for raclette (you know you're at a cool cheese shop when you ask for raclette cheese made from goat or sheep, and they just nod and bring you some cheese). We'll see if I don't get sore boobs until then. That would certainly be interesting, if very sad.
So while I was out and about getting my fancy cheese, I tried to go to the herbalist to buy another Chastetree berry/Vervain tincture (this is the one I use to help with progesterone in luteal phase)- closed on Sundays! So at my hippie store I bought some chaste tree berry tea and vervain tea. Ah...I don't think tea is quite the same as tincture. But, it is the best I can do until I can get more tincture. And certainly cheaper than tincture! Wish me luck! (Or let me know if this is a terrible idea)
On Saturday I had a moment of - "maybe I don't even want to have a baby". It was sort of surreal. It was a tiring day (which began at 5am), and I was having a bath and reading a book in the evening, and I thought about how much I was enjoying that - and with kids you don't necessarily get to check out and have a bath whenever you want. By Sunday I was back in the swing of things, but.... yikes. At the very least I'm hoping for a little Murphey's Law action here. ;)
Monday, January 9, 2012
Saturday, January 7, 2012
2011 in review
I got this over at The Surprise of Unfolding (she was my prayer buddy this Advent), and I thought I'd take a crack at it.
Year in Review
1. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don’t remember my resolutions from last year - that's part of the fun, always forgetting.
For 2012: No more refined sugar. At all. This includes High Fructose Corn Syrup.
2. What did you do in 2011 that you’d never done before?
An IUI (not fun!), Fall camping (fun!)
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Heck yes. A good friend, another friend's wife, another friend, several wives of guys at work...
4. Did anyone close to you die?
No.
5. What countries did you visit?
China, Hong Kong, Macau, Taiwan (haha - all sort of just china!)
6. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
Get back to being more fit.
7. What date(s) from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Um...right now I've got nothing.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Tough question. I don't really think I achieved very much - the year just sort of floated by. Our home improvements are coming along, but that is mostly DH.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Not getting my husband a harmonica for his stocking stuffer.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
String of colds (maybe the flu) in Nov/Dec. Some adrenal fatigue earlier in the year that I think I have beat now.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
New winter boots. Hot!
12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Feather's and I when we 'won' Nano.
13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
The whole pizza is a vegetable thing. I don't care how you slice it - the nutritional status of most children is sad.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Mortgage! While I am still working with my golden handcuffs, we're trying to pay down the mortgage as much as we can - maybe one day I will go on mat leave and never return?
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Cousin's wedding, trip to China
16. What song will always remind you of 2011?
Party Rock Anthem by LMFAO. It was just introduced to me recently - it is hilar. It was the theme of our NY trip - the kids loved it as well ("the robot song!").
17. Compared to this time last year, are you: (a) happier or sadder? (b) thinner or fatter? (c) richer or poorer?
a) same?
b) fatter
c) richer
18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Running/Gym workouts/Walking
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Watch TV! Netflix, you are my downfall!
20. How did you spend Christmas?
With my Mom and Aunt. First time ever. It was sort of a punishment for my Dad. Back to Dad next year.
21. Did you fall in love in 2011?
Yes - with the Real Food movement.
22. What was your favorite TV program?
Fringe, Drop Dead Diva (super ridiculous), Glee, Murder She Wrote, Walking Dead
23. Do you hate anyone now that you did not hate this time last year?
I dislike this dude at work, but I don't hate him. I'm not much of a hater.
24. What was the best book you read?
Heidi. I loved it - I can't believe I never read it before.
25. What was your greatest musical discovery?
LMFAO. (Yes, I am aware that I sound like a teenager that has been let out of a cave she's lived in all year)
26. What did you want and get?
A fancy pickling crock, to make my own sauerkraut. Check! :)
27. What did you want and not get?
To get out of the rat race, live in the country, grow more things.
28. What was your favourite film of this year?
Rachel getting married.
29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Went to a B&B that weekend - really nice.
30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Well, duh - have baby.
31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
Hahha - personal fashion wha...? I don't have those.
32. What kept you sane?
Blogging. Friends. CBC radio 2's Fresh Air.
33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Shane from the L word.
34. What political issue stirred you the most?
The power major corporations have over our lives.
35. Who did you miss?
I always miss my Grandma, and I missed a good friend who moved to BC, and Feather who lives about 5 hours away, but wouldn't it be grand if we lived in the same city?
.
36. Who was the best new person you met?
I would have to say all the altos in my new choir. I think they're all great. My fav is midwife E, but also I find D's take on the world really positive and inspiring.
37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011.
It is worth it to join an organisation (for me it was a church) to get to know your community more. And that out of the cold patrons just seem to be guys down on their luck.
38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
Everyday I'm shufflin' (as in, I keep going to work my lame job, no baby has yet appeared, rinse and repeat...)
Year in Review
1. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don’t remember my resolutions from last year - that's part of the fun, always forgetting.
For 2012: No more refined sugar. At all. This includes High Fructose Corn Syrup.
2. What did you do in 2011 that you’d never done before?
An IUI (not fun!), Fall camping (fun!)
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Heck yes. A good friend, another friend's wife, another friend, several wives of guys at work...
4. Did anyone close to you die?
No.
5. What countries did you visit?
China, Hong Kong, Macau, Taiwan (haha - all sort of just china!)
6. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
Get back to being more fit.
7. What date(s) from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Um...right now I've got nothing.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Tough question. I don't really think I achieved very much - the year just sort of floated by. Our home improvements are coming along, but that is mostly DH.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Not getting my husband a harmonica for his stocking stuffer.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
String of colds (maybe the flu) in Nov/Dec. Some adrenal fatigue earlier in the year that I think I have beat now.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Feather's and I when we 'won' Nano.
13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
The whole pizza is a vegetable thing. I don't care how you slice it - the nutritional status of most children is sad.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Mortgage! While I am still working with my golden handcuffs, we're trying to pay down the mortgage as much as we can - maybe one day I will go on mat leave and never return?
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Cousin's wedding, trip to China
16. What song will always remind you of 2011?
Party Rock Anthem by LMFAO. It was just introduced to me recently - it is hilar. It was the theme of our NY trip - the kids loved it as well ("the robot song!").
17. Compared to this time last year, are you: (a) happier or sadder? (b) thinner or fatter? (c) richer or poorer?
a) same?
b) fatter
c) richer
18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Running/Gym workouts/Walking
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Watch TV! Netflix, you are my downfall!
20. How did you spend Christmas?
With my Mom and Aunt. First time ever. It was sort of a punishment for my Dad. Back to Dad next year.
21. Did you fall in love in 2011?
Yes - with the Real Food movement.
22. What was your favorite TV program?
Fringe, Drop Dead Diva (super ridiculous), Glee, Murder She Wrote, Walking Dead
23. Do you hate anyone now that you did not hate this time last year?
I dislike this dude at work, but I don't hate him. I'm not much of a hater.
24. What was the best book you read?
Heidi. I loved it - I can't believe I never read it before.
25. What was your greatest musical discovery?
LMFAO. (Yes, I am aware that I sound like a teenager that has been let out of a cave she's lived in all year)
26. What did you want and get?
A fancy pickling crock, to make my own sauerkraut. Check! :)
27. What did you want and not get?
To get out of the rat race, live in the country, grow more things.
28. What was your favourite film of this year?
Rachel getting married.
29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Went to a B&B that weekend - really nice.
30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Well, duh - have baby.
31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
Hahha - personal fashion wha...? I don't have those.
32. What kept you sane?
Blogging. Friends. CBC radio 2's Fresh Air.
33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Shane from the L word.
34. What political issue stirred you the most?
The power major corporations have over our lives.
35. Who did you miss?
I always miss my Grandma, and I missed a good friend who moved to BC, and Feather who lives about 5 hours away, but wouldn't it be grand if we lived in the same city?
.
36. Who was the best new person you met?
I would have to say all the altos in my new choir. I think they're all great. My fav is midwife E, but also I find D's take on the world really positive and inspiring.
37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011.
It is worth it to join an organisation (for me it was a church) to get to know your community more. And that out of the cold patrons just seem to be guys down on their luck.
38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
Everyday I'm shufflin' (as in, I keep going to work my lame job, no baby has yet appeared, rinse and repeat...)
Thursday, January 5, 2012
The boob that kept on hurting...
... doc says it is just Costochondritis. No big deal. Essentially it is like I pulled a muscle (in my chese wall) with all that coughing back in December.
It is a bit scary, when you google "breast pain" all sorts of cancer sites come up. And I didn't really think that was it - I was leaning towards maybe it was a cyst - but I am glad to hear it is just a pulled muscle. No more lady problems, please - I have enough!
NYE was fun. But let me tell you - four babies in the same room, all sort of freaking out because there was too much stuff going on, and a very tetchy two year old, and a rambuncious four year old... hahah - it wasn't a quiet weekend, shall we say. ;)
It was a bit hard at times - the engaged-not-yet-married girl had lots of preggo questions for all the Moms in the house. And one of them recommended a book to read about getting pg - in my head I am screaming "No! Don't listen to her! An IF knows all about it! That book is not the best!" but I just kept my mouth shut and said not a word. In fact for all pg related conversations (which there were many, with so many new moms) I sort of edged away and didn't say anything.
Hopefully next year I'll be taking part! :) At the very least, it is intersting being around all these different parenting styles and kids, and hearing them give tips to each other.
They did sort of mention another girl I know is undergoing IUI for her second kid. And I like the tone, like it was no big deal. Maybe I'll tell them all at some point. But I have to be able to do it without crying! I think I'm there, but I haven't tested it lately.
I have another little cold (probably from one of those snot nosed little buggers - the whole trip got sick) - and I was just feeling unhealthy in general. I think this is not the month for me. I feel too "acidic". This is proved by DH's gout flaring up - we are on low imflammation food for the next while (which will also help with my pulled boob muscle). And it is time to pull out our Chinse remedy for gout - coconut water and black bean water. Poor DH - I hope it doesn't flare all the way up, he'll be crippled for a few days. And it's his Chinese bday tomorrow!
I just called dr A's office and said we're a 'go' for next cycle IUI. We have to redo our STD bloodwork before then since it's been >6 months. Which is so lame - 6 months already?!?! The nice thing was that the receptionist knew me on the phone - yet this is also a bad sign, since I go there so much! Yaargh.
It is a bit scary, when you google "breast pain" all sorts of cancer sites come up. And I didn't really think that was it - I was leaning towards maybe it was a cyst - but I am glad to hear it is just a pulled muscle. No more lady problems, please - I have enough!
NYE was fun. But let me tell you - four babies in the same room, all sort of freaking out because there was too much stuff going on, and a very tetchy two year old, and a rambuncious four year old... hahah - it wasn't a quiet weekend, shall we say. ;)
It was a bit hard at times - the engaged-not-yet-married girl had lots of preggo questions for all the Moms in the house. And one of them recommended a book to read about getting pg - in my head I am screaming "No! Don't listen to her! An IF knows all about it! That book is not the best!" but I just kept my mouth shut and said not a word. In fact for all pg related conversations (which there were many, with so many new moms) I sort of edged away and didn't say anything.
Hopefully next year I'll be taking part! :) At the very least, it is intersting being around all these different parenting styles and kids, and hearing them give tips to each other.
They did sort of mention another girl I know is undergoing IUI for her second kid. And I like the tone, like it was no big deal. Maybe I'll tell them all at some point. But I have to be able to do it without crying! I think I'm there, but I haven't tested it lately.
I have another little cold (probably from one of those snot nosed little buggers - the whole trip got sick) - and I was just feeling unhealthy in general. I think this is not the month for me. I feel too "acidic". This is proved by DH's gout flaring up - we are on low imflammation food for the next while (which will also help with my pulled boob muscle). And it is time to pull out our Chinse remedy for gout - coconut water and black bean water. Poor DH - I hope it doesn't flare all the way up, he'll be crippled for a few days. And it's his Chinese bday tomorrow!
I just called dr A's office and said we're a 'go' for next cycle IUI. We have to redo our STD bloodwork before then since it's been >6 months. Which is so lame - 6 months already?!?! The nice thing was that the receptionist knew me on the phone - yet this is also a bad sign, since I go there so much! Yaargh.
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Happy New Year's!
We are leaving tomorrow for our New Year's Eve ski trip with my University buddies. Wish me luck! I will have a former IF lady in attendence, but there still will be
I have STILL been eating candies and chocolates like it is going out of style. Which it is. Come NYE, goodbye refined sugar! I just found the dehyrated sugar cane I was looking for at the asian grocery store near my in-laws - it is asian and carribean and indian - it was in the carribean section I found what I was looking for. It is totally true - the more sugar you eat, the more you crave it. At least this panela (also called Rapadura) comes with some vitamins attached, instead of leeching the vitamins out of you. We don't eat a lot of sweetened food anyhow, so I don't anticipate using it too often, besides for the root beer. It's those darn chocolate bon bons on the coffee table that have been getting me the last few days!
I am hoping to make some root beer in the new year! :)
Anyway, I hope everyone has a lovely ringing in of 2012! We traditionally do it singing auld lyne syng accompanied by an accordian. Fun, right? Despite all the kiddos, it is really a nice vibe we have going on New Years - even when I was younger, I always preferred to spend NYE with good friends, and not out at a bar or club.
And you better believe I will be raising a glass of champagne for all you IF ladies!
- a super cute 4 year old
- 2 toddlers (one of whom will call me "Auntie CS" - how cute!)
- 4 babies
- 1 on the way (but this is to Boston, a former IF-er, so that's not too bad. This one was a surprise for them, which is kinda hopeful - they had to do several IUIs for #1, now #2 is out of the blue! She's going back from mat leave already preggo.)
I have STILL been eating candies and chocolates like it is going out of style. Which it is. Come NYE, goodbye refined sugar! I just found the dehyrated sugar cane I was looking for at the asian grocery store near my in-laws - it is asian and carribean and indian - it was in the carribean section I found what I was looking for. It is totally true - the more sugar you eat, the more you crave it. At least this panela (also called Rapadura) comes with some vitamins attached, instead of leeching the vitamins out of you. We don't eat a lot of sweetened food anyhow, so I don't anticipate using it too often, besides for the root beer. It's those darn chocolate bon bons on the coffee table that have been getting me the last few days!
Anyway, I hope everyone has a lovely ringing in of 2012! We traditionally do it singing auld lyne syng accompanied by an accordian. Fun, right? Despite all the kiddos, it is really a nice vibe we have going on New Years - even when I was younger, I always preferred to spend NYE with good friends, and not out at a bar or club.
And you better believe I will be raising a glass of champagne for all you IF ladies!
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Ow Ow Ow.
I feel like I'm in a lot of pain lately.
I just had a brutal period. The worst I've ever had.
And my right boob did not stop being sore at the onset of my period like it was supposed to. (sigh) After some Dr Google, I think maybe it is a cyst or something? It is annoying. It hurts particularly when I sneeze/cough/laugh/lift my arms/hug/breathe very deeply. I think I will call and book a dr appt today just to be sure.
So... maybe this dairy thing isn't working out for me so well. Bah. I love goat dairy. But if my next period is even worse... it is too much. I'll have to start taking pain medication (for now I live with the very painful cramps because I don't like taking things if I don't have to). Or it is from all the crap I've been eating (yes, me!) due to the holidays! I've been having sugar almost every day. Well... ok, every day. And bits of cow milk.
More on that later, we're off to my sis-in-law's for a buckwheat waffle fun Holiday breakfast! :)
I just had a brutal period. The worst I've ever had.
And my right boob did not stop being sore at the onset of my period like it was supposed to. (sigh) After some Dr Google, I think maybe it is a cyst or something? It is annoying. It hurts particularly when I sneeze/cough/laugh/lift my arms/hug/breathe very deeply. I think I will call and book a dr appt today just to be sure.
So... maybe this dairy thing isn't working out for me so well. Bah. I love goat dairy. But if my next period is even worse... it is too much. I'll have to start taking pain medication (for now I live with the very painful cramps because I don't like taking things if I don't have to). Or it is from all the crap I've been eating (yes, me!) due to the holidays! I've been having sugar almost every day. Well... ok, every day. And bits of cow milk.
More on that later, we're off to my sis-in-law's for a buckwheat waffle fun Holiday breakfast! :)
Monday, December 26, 2011
Prayer Buddy reveal and Christmas update
I was praying for The Surprise of Unfolding. What a beautiful blog title. She is not infertile, but a busy wife and Mom, that in itself was a lesson.
Christmas turned out to be pretty fun. It was a bit stressful at times - while I love my Auntie dearly, she can be a bit particular and needs to have things 'just so', which can be trying. In the end it was a lovely day, though. We had two guests for dinner - a friend my Aunt had just met who was here from Switzerland and did not have anyone to share Christmas with, and a guy from my choir who also didn't have anyone to have to share Christmas dinner with. I'm so glad we had the extra guests, it made it even more festive. And I loved hearing about Switzerland! (I am part Swiss)
It was a super fun meal, if a bit late (I should put the turkey in an hour earlier than it says on the package! augh!) - but man, what a lot of cleanup! There is a reason we only use the good dishes once or twice a year. :)
I just want to REST today (did not sleep well last night), but we're having more friends over this evening - yikes! It will be nice to see them though. And hopefully we'll go out for dinner, and then maybe beg off.
Christmas turned out to be pretty fun. It was a bit stressful at times - while I love my Auntie dearly, she can be a bit particular and needs to have things 'just so', which can be trying. In the end it was a lovely day, though. We had two guests for dinner - a friend my Aunt had just met who was here from Switzerland and did not have anyone to share Christmas with, and a guy from my choir who also didn't have anyone to have to share Christmas dinner with. I'm so glad we had the extra guests, it made it even more festive. And I loved hearing about Switzerland! (I am part Swiss)
It was a super fun meal, if a bit late (I should put the turkey in an hour earlier than it says on the package! augh!) - but man, what a lot of cleanup! There is a reason we only use the good dishes once or twice a year. :)
I just want to REST today (did not sleep well last night), but we're having more friends over this evening - yikes! It will be nice to see them though. And hopefully we'll go out for dinner, and then maybe beg off.
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
I might explode
CD31
Very very early spotting has started. And I've never seen that to mean "Implantation Bleeding" - nope, this is it.
I am all swear words and furious in my head. And strangely quiet. I can't sleep.
I don't want to do this anymore.
Very very early spotting has started. And I've never seen that to mean "Implantation Bleeding" - nope, this is it.
I am all swear words and furious in my head. And strangely quiet. I can't sleep.
I don't want to do this anymore.
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