Friday, May 23, 2014

13 months and back to work!

[I wrote this piece on the weekend in anticipation of being being busy on her actual 13th-month-day.  How a second line changes things!  I've had to edit it!  :)]

Well, I'm back to work as of May 20th.  I can't believe it's already been 13 months.  Well, technically I've taken a little more time's probably more like 13.5months, because she was overdue and whatnot.  Sorry no pic this month!

Some working-mom whining, you can skip:
I was having a lot of trouble dealing with going back to work.  I haven't been away from my baby girl for more than a few hours, ever!  And now I'm supposed to leave her all day?!  A LARGE part of me wants to sell the house and move somewhere rural and live off the land.  But DH isn't so into that.  And I mean, I'm SUPER lucky he will be staying home with her.  But still...I want it to be me!  Think of all the baby smiles I will be missing.  Poot.  And it's been a GREAT year - best year ever, hands down.  If we are good and pay our mortgage off DH says I can retire.  :)  I really really like being a Mom.  I even like changing her diaper.  I still am in shock sometimes this is our life now.  Love it.  We've been so blessed.  Even having DH home most of the year with me has been such a blessing. 

Knowing I'm pg makes going back to work way easier.  In my head when things are already getting crazy at work, I'm like "I'm here for like 8 months, yo." - helps not to be too invested in things.

Still great!  She's even moved up from 15% on the weight chart, which doc says is very good.  We are so lucky to have a good eater - she's really been enjoying her barley lately.

Cloth diapering:
Still great!  We had a little rash, but it disappeared in a day or so.

Walking like a prostar!  (Well, actually, toddling like a toddler)  She's a great walker now - not that she doesn't fall every now and then, but still having her walking is great.  I would say easier than before.

She says about 8 words now:  Dad/Daddy, Mama, Up, Happy, Baby, Uh-oh, Hi, Baby and Pippa (but it sounds like Peee-pa - close enough).  We have a "my first 20 words" page up on the fridge, that's fun.

She's not doing too many baby signs these days, but we're still using them.  She kinda does "water", but it's rather vague. (You use your W hand and tap your chin - she just sort of roughly aims at her mouth area).  Because she eats like a maniac, she's been forced to do "more" so we don't cut her off early.  Because we feed her a ton of food, and think that little baby tummy must be full, but she wants more!

Fav Songs:
I think "How many days does my baby to play?", "Ride, Horsie, Ride", and "Nelly goes 'cross the ocean".  DH will be taking over going to baby singing class now - I'm JEALOUS.  But we have a great book (What to do with the Baby-o) which is basically the same as the class, so I can keep up.  The song "Boom boom boom" made me break down in tears yesterday.

Baby Health:
Good!  She had her MMR vaccine last week, it (I think) made her a bit fussy at times, but we seem to be past it.

My Health:
Still no AF! -> Because of my BFP!  Because I never had AF visit, I don't have too much idea about how pg I am.  Dating ultrasound is scheduled for in two weeks, my doc hopes that will hit 7 weeks.

I don't have too many symptoms yet - but unlike last time, I'm relaxed/happy about that.  I know that symptoms may come (or may not, each pg is different, right?), so no need to wish them to happen.  Puking in the parking lot at work is less fun than it sounds, I'm ok if that doesn't happen this time.  ;)  But I sort of expect it, so will at least be prepared.  No worries.

I'm not showing yet or anything.  But I do think I'm starting to have cravings.  Poor DH.  Oh, and I've been sleeping like it's going out of style.  Seriously, like 7pm kind of sleeping.

Great.  She was up twice a night for the last week, but she's back to magic.  I think being up was maybe just from the MMR vaccine making her a bit fussier.   She's back to - sleep all night until ~6am, nurse, back to sleep until ~9am.  So far me going back to work has not influenced her schedule.

Monday, May 19, 2014

Today turned from Sad to Glad with a Big Fat.....


OMG.  Yes, you read that right - we are expecting again!

I was expecting to be all "woe is me" - work starts tomorrow.  I was very sad/nervous/upset about going back to work.

I am seriously the most blessed/lucky/fortunate lady in the world.  It's no big shakes going back to now - its only for 9 months!  And we have to pay the mortgage/save up for the next mat leave.

OMG.  Next mat leave.  Wow!  It seems unbelievable!

I know that there are no guarantees this pg will stick, so we'll take it one day at a time.  And this is NOT yet confirmed by a blood test.  It's a holiday here today, so we'll have to fit that in sometime this week.

Wow, I totally have been wishing I could say to my boss when we talked about what I'd be doing back at work, tell her I was pg and only going to be there for 9 months.   Amazing.  And how lucky - its really best for her for planning to be able to know this upfront.  That's actually why I tested today - so I would know for sure when I was going back to work.  I didn't even pray for this or anything, it seemed way too greedy.

Remember I've had no AF (still nursing), so we have no idea about dates or anything.  But I tested sometime last month, so it's probably a few weeks along max.  I feel super un-pregnant, which is why I'm maybe still feeling a bit of shock.  Then again, I had a massive crying jag while watching 'Call the Midwife' (best show ever, btw) on Wednesday, but that was maybe pg hormones.  I even said to DH, "I haven't cried that hard since I was pg!"

Wow.  Wow wow wow.  Half of me wants another girl, the other half wants a boy.  Ha!

What a morning!  I want to test again to make sure!  :)  (and obvi blood test!) It still seems so unreal.  OMG, our little family is growing!  We are so blessed.  Like I've said before, we would be happy with just our baby girl, but we did want more than one if we were so blessed.


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