Sunday, September 30, 2012

Adoption Seminar, Days 3 and 4

12 weeks

Well, we are officially done PRIDE training!!   In the end, I really liked it, I think it was a great experience.  I would have wished there was a little more emphasis on local non-infant adoptions, but there was quite a lot.  And it has left us with a HUGE resource book.

And lots of adoption buddies.  They are planning on meeting up at the next A.R.E (adoption resource exchange - sort of like an adoption fair) that is in October.  We won't be going, because our plans have shifted out due to Appleseed, but that is really cool that they are going, I'm slightly jealous.  DH might go just to check it out.  There is a keen couple that is planning on putting together a mailing list of everyone, and people are talking about a 5 year reunion, with our kids!  :)  (Not sure it will happen, but a really nice idea.)

I think it is just like having IF ladies - super important.  I can't tell you how much that first meeting of the IF group was to me.  Some of you will remember I cried the whole time, but I really needed to see other women in my situation, which I still felt a lot of shame about at that time.

I did learn something shocking yesterday - for adoption, you only get 8 months maternity leave (called parental leave).  What what?  I thought it was the same as for birth (12 months).  Apparently the rules changed a few years ago, and are being challenged at the supreme court.  We shall see.  Seems highly unfair to me.

While still feeling unsure about fostering (need to do way more research - there are administrative complications as well), DH is quite convinced he wants to adopt a child (not that he wasn't before, but this has really cemented it).  Probably after Appleseed, and then God-willing we'll either have another child by birth, or by adoption.

The Rubber Band Connection

This post is all about pg - you may want to skip it.


Oh My Gosh.  Here I am.  12 weeks!  Yowzas!  Hooray!  Midwife appt tomorrow!

The Appleseed is the size of a lime this week.  I am sort of shocked - that is huge!  Go Appleseed, go!

I've been having trouble closing my pants all week, so Monday I tried the 'rubber band method' of holding one's pants together.

 (this is just a pic from the Interweb, this is not me.)

I loooove the rubber band method.  I looove my pants not cutting into my belly - so comfy!  My boss offered me her belly band, and that will be great if she brings it in, but the rubber band has given me much comfort this week.  I can't quite decide if I'm 'showing'.  Certainly in the evenings my tummy seems large...but in the mornings, not always so much.  More like - after a big Christmas dinner.

I've bought a few loose tops at a discount store to hide the fact that my pants aren't done up.  I am not planning to announce at work for a week+ yet, so I need to keep this up for a while yet.  Not that I'll be able to show the rubber band after, but at least I won't have to pretend I've just had a few too many french fries lately!

I'm also not interested in spending a ton of money on maternity clothes, so I'm hoping once we announce to more friends people will offer me their old clothes.  :)  My boss offered me some clothes of her sister in law (or someone?), that is nice, but I'm not sure it is going to happen, we'll see.

My boss has been really nice lately.  We have whispered conversations about pg now and then.

I'm still getting morning sickness.  I've had no vomitus drama, but I've been feeling dizzy/nauseous...oh, well, still quite often.  Most of Thursday I felt sick, and all through choir practise.  Yikes!  The good news is that Thursday morning at work I had been thinking(/worrying) "I feel a bit too normal, I wonder if Appleseed is ok?", then WHAM, I felt pretty sick all day.  :)  Is ok, I'll take it.  I know you can feel sick if your baby is actually not ok, but the trend is a good sign at least, I've got to think.  (ps - Ginger tea?  Seems to have no effect on me)

I think Appleseed would like me to eat more (?), but it is hard - I have just a regular appetite.  So far it seems like I've gained about 2 pounds - totally ok.  I had to get up last night and eat at 4am, I just wasn't sleeping and felt a bit empty - despite going to bed full.  And I'm still thirsty like a maniac, so most of that is fluid, I'm sure.  I have stepped up my drinking quite a bit - I scheme now to pump in extra glasses of water in the day.

I haven't really had any cravings yet, other than a dream about choco-crispies (chocolate rice crispies  - I don't even know if you can get them in Canada, and really, we're not extruded grain type of people, I would never buy it).  I guess I've had tons of aversions - I'm really picky about beef now, and I almost ralphed the last time I smelled sardines (which normally I chow down on at least once a week).

My fatigue is way better, for about the last few weeks.  I feel human again.  :)

I don't really have super smell, and don't urinate more than normal.

I was having crazy breathlessness earlier, but that is mostly gone away.  Like I'd walk around the house, then lie down on the couch pretty out of breath.  Weird.  But gone now.

I have had a headache or two, which is normal, I don't usually ever have headaches.

My boobs don't hurt so much anymore.  They were quite sore at first, but have dulled to generally sore-ish, no big deal.   They are basically huge, but I've adjusted.  (Ok, ok, not at all 'huge'.  Huge for me.)

I did have one crazy crying jag last week, but thankfully that seems to be an isolated incident.  Poor DH.  I cried for like half an hour, for no reason.  Which of course I could barely tell him, because I was crying so hard.

Friday, September 28, 2012

A reflection back to our 2nd anniversary

11 weeks, 5 days

Oh, what a difference a year makes.  Our 2nd anniversary?  Pretty awful.  Since our anniversary coincides with our TTC-aversary, 2 years really hit me hard.  I went trolling through the blog posts to see if I had posted about it.  Yup.  It's even worse than I remember.

I didn't even want to go out for our anniversary last year, and finally DH convinced me to go to a local restaurant we both liked.  I was sad the whole time.  Even though I tried to fill my head with things like "aren't I lucky to have my DH", all I could think of was two years TTC.

Now here I am on the flip side, still surprised to be here.  It still seems unreal to me.  Even when I think about becoming great with child, I don't 100% feel like that is actually going to happen to me.

All I can think about lately is how lucky and blessed I am.  I am still so happy to have my DH (and I love being married), but the addition of the Appleseed has somehow slanted the entire picture.  Now I am happy I have a fancy job (instead of hating it), so glad for our cozy house (see, I said 'cozy' and not 'dump of a'), etc.

I wish we all could be here, whether through adoption or birth.  It makes me so sad to think of our IF warriors still trying, or of the recent losses.  So I'm trying not to appear as if I'm gloating ... but I am so happy and thankful every day, and not taking anything for granted.

I think if we were still TTC this would be a wildly different anniversary from last year anyway - with the adoption seminar half done, things would be looking up.  Adoption is a bit scary at first because there is so much process, and you don't know all the rules.  But the seminar really does help, and everyone there is excited for adoption.

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Happy 3rd Anniversary, DH!

11 weeks, 3 days

I am so lucky and happy to be married to my darling husband!  Happy 3rd anniversary honey!  xxoo!
I stole this from JB - I think it is a cute thing to fill out.  :)  Thanks, JB!

1. Where/how did you meet: We met at a friend's house shortly after I moved back to Canada.  My high school friend (one of only a few I'm still in touch with) and his dragon-boating buddy are married, and had a dinner party with both of us over.

2. How long have you known each other: Since November 2006.

3. How long after you met did you start dating: Quite a while - the four of us (DH, me, high school friend and dragon boating buddy) we on a curling team together that winter, and we only started dating after curling season was done - we had a season to get to know each other and start to flirt.

4. How long did you date before you were engaged:  ~2 years

5. How long was your engagement: 9 months

6. How long have you been married: 3 years
7. What is your anniversary:  09-26-09

8. How many people came to your wedding reception:220!
9. What kind of cake did you serve: Cupcakes made by Feather and entourage.  YUM!  (We even had some Vegan ones!)

10. Where was your wedding:  Knox United in Scarborough, Ontario.  Cute church, close to our venue, carpet matched the bridesmaids dresses (I kid you not), but in retrospect if we had already starting going to our church it would have been a lot more special to be married there by my own minister.

11. What did you serve for your meal: 10 course traditional Chinese wedding buffet.  The first course, as is traditionally done in Cantonese circles, was suckling pig with glowing eyeballs, which the waiters paraded out with the lights down low.  It made quite an impression on my relatives!  :)

12. How many people were there in your bridal party: 8.  4 ladies, 4 gents.  My ladies were my #1 cousin, Feather, and two ladies from University I was (/am) so close with.  DH had 4 friends.

13. Are you still friends with them all: I'm still friends/related to all my ladies.  Two of DH's groomsmen we are no longer friends with.  :(
14. Did you or your spouse cry during the ceremony: Oh yeah, I was a total mess.  My Dad drove us to the Church, and we got in the car he started playing "Going to the Chapel" because he remembered I have always wanted to hear that song as I was going to the chapel to get married - well, the water works started and didn't stop for quite a while.  I had to re-do my makeup at Church, and hang out a bit in the basement while I pulled it together.  I was just so happy and over excited!

15. Most special moment of your wedding day: My cousin and a good friend sang "Lo, How a Rose" during the service a capella, I loved it and was quite touched (and obvi cried).
16. Any funny moments: Lots!  In particular, they made me play this game where I had to guess DH's bum from a lineup of boys (I was blindfolded).  Games are common in Chinese receptions.  Well, it was hilarious.  I had to say why a particular bum was incorrect, and I tried to get creative with my responses!  Haha - was my face red when I realized how many of the bums of my guy friends I have now felt up!
17. Any big disasters: Nothing too huge - my makeup didn't look quite how  I wanted it to look, it did rain a bit (which is ok, that is good luck), my hair didn't turn out quite how I wanted, DH's best man was a bit rude, but no huge disasters.
18. Where did you go on your honeymoon: Resort in Mexico.
19. How long where you gone: 7 days
20. If you were to do your wedding over, what would you change: I would have done my own makeup, I would have been more clear about how I wanted my dress, I would have made the bridesmaids dresses easier, I would have been more clear about my hair, I would have had a different photographer....little tweaks, nothing major.

21. What side of the bed do you sleep on: the left
22. What size is your bed: Queen
23. Greatest strength as a couple: We share a lot of the same family goals.

24. Greatest challenge as a couple: IF... and that I kinda want to live on a commune.

25. Who literally pays the bills: me!

26. What is your song: We don't really have one.  If pressed, I'd have to say the theme song to True Blood.  Every time we watch it I sing it to DH, but I change "I want to do bad things with you" to "I want to do good things with you"
27. What did you dance your first dance to:  We did not have a first dance.  It was our wedding and both of us aren't huge dancers, so we just didn't do that.
28. Describe your wedding dress:  I had 3 dresses.  My white dress I had custom made.  I was inspired by Porche de Rossi's dress when she married Ellen, I wanted something similar, but with a slightly different top.  It had a HUGE tuile (?) skirt and had over the shoulder...oh, here is a pic (me and one of my bridesmaids), I am not describing it well.  Recently a colleague's wife remarked that she really loved my wedding dress (and she is fancy and has gone to many fancy weddings), so that really brightened my day (yes, 3 years later!).

I also wore a cham-sam, which is a traditional Chinese modern wedding dress.  I had that custom made too, instead of a huge slit up the side (common), I had it flow out a bit to cover my big hips.  The only thing I didn't like about it is that the seamstress made it with a default little tummy for me, but I didn't have one!  During our tea ceremony I had on a quai, which is a traditional dress for the tea ceremony.  I borrowed DH's sister's.  It is quite pretty.  Um... I still haven't given it back yet!

29. What kind of flowers did you have at your wedding: White roses.

30. Are your wedding bands engraved? Yes. The date (can't forget!) and our last name "Taai taai" which is wife in Cantonese.  :)  Like if our last name was Chen, my ring says CHEN TAAI TAAI 09-26-09. 

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Adoption Seminar, Day 2

10 wks, 6 days

Day 2 was good as well.  I am feeling more comfortable, getting to know some other couples there.

I thought of something I should have mentioned yesterday - infertility.  It wasn't a huge deal.  I was worried we'd have to go into our back stories about 'why' we were looking at adoption.  Nope.  It was mentioned as a reason people adopt, but not focused on.  I really liked that.   When I first found out we had to do PRIDE training, I had horrible visions of boo-hoo-fests about infertility - that just isn't the focus.

We did today talk about loss, and acknowledge some of the loss associated with adoption - including what we would lose not giving birth to this child.

DH and I are more excited.  I'm starting to get this sense of "Yes, there are issues associated with adopting slightly older children through CAS.  Here are some tools to deal with them."  - instead of sort of being thrown to the wolves.

Friday, September 21, 2012

Adoption Seminar, Day 1

10 wks, 5 days

Well, today was the first day of the adoption seminar (PRIDE training).

It was actually kind of fun.  The woman who is running our seminar is really good.  And it INCLUDES FOOD (it should for that price, right?)!  (JB, you might want to let them know about GF early - it seems that isn't hard for them to accommodate)

It was super interesting - I really like how they seem to be about honesty, and not about requiring perfect families.  It's also nice to get to know other people wanting to adopt - and actually, there were several people there that already had one or two kids, but wanted to grow their families through adoption.  And there were some people there who weren't sure, and so were taking the training as a way to better educate themselves, which is totally fair.

There was a lot of info about fostering, which is good, that's on our possibility list.  We talked to her a bit during the breaks about it - she says if we're fostering, it is more likely CAS would do our homestudy (aka, free).  We also mentioned we're expecting (privately), and what sort of ages would be good for our child and the foster child, and she suggested another baby would probably be ok, but CAS would decide if they felt we could handle it (totally paraphrasing here).

The training was CAS focused (again, that is children's aid society - aka, the kids that get removed from their birth families due to 'issues'), but she also added private (aka, infants - VERY few in Ontario every year) and international info into the presentation. 

The laws in the last few years have been reformed to make it easier to adopt local children, and they are seeing increasing adoption, which I think is great - instead of letting a kid get so old in the system they become 'un-adoptable'.

We also talked a bit about attachment issues when kids are moved from foster home to foster home.  Then she showed us the world's saddest video.  I don't know - I actually couldn't watch it, it was too sad.  It was from the child's point of view, and it was about how they kept getting moved from family to family.  SO SAD.  I was doing my best not to cry - you know when your jaw gets all tight because you're keeping it in?  Yikes.  I had to spend most of that time looking at the carpet.  I just kept thinking, "this is so sad.  Those poor kids.  It's not fair", and that would get me going.

We did a bit about how to get a child to attach to you, I really liked that.  It seems it would make sense even for birth children.

It also kicked of some good discussions DH and I had tonight, which was good - sometimes life gets in the way and we don't just sit down and spend hours talking about things.  We went through some what-if scenarios, really got us thinking about things.

DH's family is not really into the adoption idea - fostering might be a way to open them up to it.  And maybe foster-to-adopt if that works out would be great.

Or we'll see.

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Adoption Training Cometh!

10 weeks, 3 days

It seems like ages ago we signed up for adoption training (PRIDE).  But here we are - Friday is our first day.  We decided it would be super crazy to back out of adoption training - there is no guarantee Appleseed is going to stick.

And PRIDE training lasts forever - as in we'll never need to renew it.  So maybe we will adopt in the future, then this would be money well spent.  In case you are curious, it costs $1400+tax, and includes free coffee.

I'm not sure what to expect - I will keep you posted.  We're going into this without much background study.  I haven't read any adoption books or anything, so really all my education will come from these sessions.

We've already had some homework to read - case studies of three different children in different circumstances.

I also don't want to come off as the jerk preggo in the room.  I would certainly have been resentful of a preggo.  I would have seen it as competing for the same babies, when the preggo doesn't 'need' one.

We are also open to fostering a child in the future.  This training might also help with that.  One of my Uncles was fostered for many years, then my Grandma adopted him.  (To be frank, I think they needed the money, and that's why the put off adoption - 10 mouths are a lot to feed!)

Monday, September 17, 2012

Vietnam Controversy

10 weeks, 1 day

So DH's family is all in town.  It is Grandma's 91st birthday this week, all the kids (10 of them!) are here for a week.  It is lovely (well, not that they speak to me in English, but they're all having a good time).  Oldest Uncle and wife have flown in from Hong Kong, and Second-oldest Uncle and wife have come in from Taiwan.  2nd Uncle is the father of DH's cousin who is expecting and due a few months before us, so it is all nice and happy.

So last night we went over there before dinner, and suddenly there was a lot of talk where I could here my name over and over.  Finally I was like "DH, what are they talking about?!?!"

He said they don't think I should go to Vietnam.  Youngest Uncle + Oldest/2nd Oldest were all up in arms about it.  They think it is too risky.  They pointed out things like - sure, you can eat only cooked food, but what if the bowl they serve it in is dirty?  (Chinese regularly 'clean' their chopsticks in a restaurant with hot water).

As 2nd Uncle is a doctor (albeit a psychiatrist), everyone (DH and I included) takes his opinion more seriously, than, say, youngest Uncle going off about something.  They're worried that I'll get traveller's diarrhea for days, and this could harm Appleseed.  And that the hospitals there aren't good (which I'm not sure is true...?). 

They kept saying "3rd world", but I was sort of thinking of Vietnam as 2nd world.  Haha - I just googled it, Vietnam is 2nd world!

So I've already talked it over with my midwife and she's cool if I go, but now DH and I are having second thoughts.  There is also the cost issue - good chance I won't get my $2200 flight back - OUCH.  And it will be sad to be without DH for 3+ weeks - I am a crazy sleeper, that is for another post, but trust me, it will be unlikely to be smooth sailing.  And I'll miss all this family bonding.

So, I ask you, my lovely first-world ladies - do you think I should go?  Would you go in my shoes?  Is there anyone reading that isn't from US/Canada that would like to drop an opinion?  (anonymous comments welcome) (All of my shoes, including being stranded DH-less, losing money, not getting to go to see DH's friends in HK and buy a purse from the ladies market, not getting to see Ankur Wat, etc.)

Thanks Ladies for your vote!

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Telling the Boss

10 weeks!  (wow)

I was super nervous to tell my boss.  But on Thursday morning, as soon as I was in (and had eaten some crackers and cheese), I said, "Hey, can I talk to you for a minute?  In a meeting room?"

When we go there, my voice got all emotional and wavery, but I blurted out - "I have some good news!  I'm pregnant!"  (I'm still not used to saying that out loud!)

She was really happy for me.  I explained why I had been randomly 'sick' over the last couple of weeks.  Here is where I was nervous for - I was worried she was going to be all like, "I had twins so my morning sickness was twice as worse as yours, I would just throw up and shake it off and keep going, you should too."

BUT, instead she said, "Oh, I didn't have any morning sickness.  Poor you."  Phew!

And THEN we had some IF bonding.  She said she had IVF (which I knew already through my IF-sense), and I said yes, this had taken us a long time too.  Turns out it took both of us three years.  She had endo as well, so I told her I had it too, and that seems to be what fixed my IF issues.  Sounds like she had worse endo though (although things like the endo diet don't cross her radar).  In fact, sounds like she had really awful lady parts, she was SUPER lucky IVF worked for her on the first try.  Which she knows.

And there you have it.  I am glad I mentioned it - if I have to work from home next week, she'll know I'm not sick like with the flu or a cold, that I'm just out for a few hours.  I have been confusing coworkers, who are like, "Are you feeling better now?", because they assume I've had a cold.  Or when they're like "Are you contagious?", and I'm like, "" (that would be great if I was!  I know who I'd hang out with!)

I can't believe I'm 10 weeks today.  You would think I'd be used to it by now, but it still surreal.  Even though it is early, we're slowly spreading the news.  It is super fun.  At the wedding we were at last night we didn't tell anyone, because DH feels we don't want to step on the toes of their happy day, which makes sense.  So I was just not drinking at all because I was the DD.  :)

Friday, September 7, 2012

First midwife visit!

8 weeks, 5 days

I still can't believe this is happening to me!

So my midwife (it is a collective) works out of an old Victorian house!  Hahha - what a bunch of hippies - I love it.  Very relaxed.  It is about a 6 min drive away - can't complain.  ;)

We talked about a lot of things, but these were some highlights:

-She first asked me why I chose a midwife.  I said I prefer the close relationship, and knowing she wasn't rushing me because she had a golf game coming up.  I prefer the initial post-natal visits right at my house.  And after having read outcomes for mom and baby are better with a midwife than an OB, I would be a little nervous going with an OB (assuming a normal pregnancy continues).  She was down with all that.
-She thinks I should move to a preggo vitamin.  She does not hold with the 'Preg Vit' that is commonly available from your doc, because she is concerned the levels of folic acid are actually too high.  Also I don't like them because they contain talc and colouring, so that's cool with me.
-She said my slight cramping, abdominal pains, crazy thirst, funny breathing - all fine
-She felt my lmyph node (which is swollen, and has been painful since like CD18), and said it was ok but we'd watch it
-She said if I go to the hospital, as long as there is no transfer of care, there would be no nurses in and out.  This greatly calms me - nurses can make you or break you, I don't like the element of chance to it.
-I would just have appts with her until...some later date (28 weeks? In my head that is just "far away"), then I will alternate with my backup midwife, so I get to know her as well.
-She said I can go on the family trip to Vietnam!  (I will be 23 weeks)  She is just concerned with the length of flight (in terms of blood clots), and being careful about drinking only bottled water and trying to eat only cooked food.
-She said I can go on the choir trip to New York!  (I will be 32 weeks)  She said that is a fine time to travel - and heck, I'll have my midwife with me! (and a backup)

Overall it was great.  She was very non-judgmental about all my choices - even though most of my choices right now are "I'm not sure yet" - she said there is no hurry.  In terms of choosing whether or not to have a home birth, she said I don't need to decide until I'm 8cm dilated!  I like that.

Right now I am leaning towards not having genetic testing, which is the next major decision - she supports that fully, and understands.  She also said if I change my mind that's fine.

Telling the Choir

8 weeks, 5 days

Disclaimer:  You can skip this whole post if you're not having a good day, and you're still TTC.


Last night was the first choir practise of the season.  I had decided I would be telling everyone that night.  I decided to make an announcement instead of letting the news filter through the choir - more dramatic, but certainly more nerve wracking.

As we got closer and closer to the end of practise (where the question "Is there anything else for the good of the choir?" traditionally gets asked), I got more and more nervous.  I hadn't really decided exactly what words I should say - and I was pretty sure I wasn't going to be able to say it without crying. (I'm not good with public speaking, can you tell?)

Finally it was time.  There had been tons of announcements (our upcoming choir trip, plus it was the first Thursday back), so the choir director was kind of like, "Ok, if there is nothing else.."  (slightly tersely), I held up my pencil.

I said, "I have an announcement."  Then my voiced cracked with emotion.  I made some mumbled comment about crying already, then I squawked out, "DH and I are expecting!"

Ladies.  It was wonderful.  More than I could have ever expected.  The choir burst forth with a cheer, and I was immediately hugged by many people.

People were SO happy for me!  Really genuinely excited!  I am pretty sure many of the ladies knew of our TTC troubles, and probably that played into their happiness for us.  And there were other younger people that were also so excited - of an age where babies are rare and none of their friends have them yet (say, 22).

It was just so .... fantastic.  I really felt the love.  I couldn't get to sleep that night, I was too wound up with excitement, and replaying specific comments in my head.  I am so blessed!

I am so happy.

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

160 Appleseed


So the good news is in - heartbeat is FINE!  160 bpm!  Appleseed is just fine!
YAY!  (and so cute)

DH and I celebrated by stopping by the library on the way home and picking up some baby name books!  FUN.  Not that we already haven't spent hours discussing baby names.... or, like, my whole life (from teenagerhood on) planning baby names! Hah!

Yesterday was a bit more of a tough slog - on the way to work I had to pull over and vomit on the road.  Ugh.  At least I made it to a residential neighbourhood.  And not in the car.  Ugh.  Then I hung out in the car feeling sick for a while, then I managed to drive home (still feeling rather sick).  Needless to say, I called in sick.  It took almost until lunch time to get me home!  I did feel a bit better in the afternoon and did some work and called into a meeting.

The doc said my placenta was slightly detached, but he said it was ok, nothing to worry about (?  I want midwife to reassure me.).  He could see another blood clot on the u/s, so he said I might have scary bleeding episodes now and then.  Yikes.

I was supposed to also have my first midwife appointment today - I was really looking forward to that!  But they called to cancel - she's delivering a baby!  Hah!  On her first day back at work, no less.  (She was off for 6 months).  I wonder how that works.  Guess I'll find out Friday.  So that means I WFH on Friday - this won't be the most productive work week ever. I spill the beans to my boss tomorrow at our 1:1 meeting?  DH thinks I should.  I probably should.  If she's in - she's got the flu.  We've been sort-of friendly lately....

Sunday, September 2, 2012

Better now?

2 months along

PTL, the spotting seems to have stopped.  Thank you to everyone who kept us in your thoughts and prayers!  :)  Hopefully it was just that little episode?  I am still planning on taking it easy tomorrow (by this I mean lying on the couch most of the day) and continuing to try and stay super hydrated.  I think staying hydrated was a good tip - thanks Maddie.

I have been super thirsty lately, and I assumed it was some bad blood sugar thing - but it seems to be related to being pg.  So drink up I shall! 

Lying on the couch I fool myself into thinking I am feeling well, then I get up and do something, and I get dizzy and whatnot.  I'm not sure about work on Tuesday - we'll see.  I get out of breath super easily - this also seems to be a pg symptom!  Hahaha.  I was worried all this lying about was making me out of crazy shape, but it seems to be due to the pg.  That is fine.  Really - like I stand up to cut tomatoes for 5 minutes, I lie back on the couch and am winded.  Weird.

Well, it might have taken me half an hour, but I did make a lovely tomatoe/cucumber/goat cheese salad for dinner tonight!  :)  DH says he considers that me making dinner, the sweetie.  Which is pretty much all I've done today.

Appleseed grows

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