22 weeks, 5 days
First of all, I am thinking - "How can I be so sad today? See above! I am 22 weeks, 5 days! Hooray!". But sad I am still.
DH leaves tonight for the big Vietnam trip. :(
I am going to miss him soooo much!
I do not want to go. The reason I am not going is of course because we have a little Appleseed on board, which I am SO thankful for. I prefer to have my little Appleseed a million times to taking a trip - even now looking through old Instra.gram photos I clearly separate them in my mind into before (look at me! I don't know my wait is about to end!)/after Appleseed (look at me! Secretly pg there!), I still can't believe our blessing to have her around!
And it's not like I don't want him to go - it will be good family bonding for him, I would hate for him to miss out on such a great trip. (Although, haha, it would have been good family bonding for me too - I like his sisters, I think travelling with them would be fun)
It's just that I will miss him like crazy. He's going to be gone a month! Oy vey. He's such a wonderful DH. I am really so very lucky. But this makes it harder to not have him around!
We had our choir Christmas Cantata last night, and about halfway through I had to jet - I was staring to black out a bit. Just too much standing, I guess. Yikes. But sitting down made me feel fine (well, a bit shaky still, but not blacking-out-ish). DH was in the audience, so of course he came out and sat with me. Ha - good thing my midwife was there too! Not that I needed her, just that she was there to confirm everything was ok. As did my other midwife buddy.
I felt sort of dizzy though the rest of the night/through the night - like in early pregnancy. It is contributing to my sad mood, I think. And the gloomy weather.
My Mom will come for a few days next week, then I'm off to my Dad's for a week, then the fun NYE for a few days, then my Aunt comes for a week.... but this week will be tough. Not only am I DH-less, but I'm super busy. Too busy. I've been way too busy lately - that's how it is around the holidays.
And I know not everyone has found their DH yet, I am so lucky to have him at all.
But still... miss you already, DH!