Work was crazy busy today - and I sort of think it wasn't just work, it was me not reacting well to all the demands on my attention. I rushed today. I know I was supposed to give it up, right? But I caved today and rushed a bit.
I feel totally spent now. I can't believe I have to go in tomorrow! Bah.
Going to Shanghai will be fun and all - but there is a lot of work I have to get done before I go... and I am starting to hear things like, "Oh, make sure to put that meeting in Shanghai friendly time zone [aka, 9pm local Shanghai time] on Monday so CS can attend."
Like, WTF? Really, my first day in China when I will be meg jet-lagged, they want me to call into a meeting? Actually... that might be Sunday night Shanghai time. So after a 14hr flight of not really sleeping (since I fly during the 'day'), I will be ready to crash...nope, I've got a meeting to dial in to (that I have to be on the ball for, can't just sit back and say nothing). Yikes yikes. I think I will have to bring this up to my boss that this is unrealistic... it sounds like an easy thing to do, you are all thinking, "Go tell your boss that is unreasonable", but our company culture makes this a hard thing - I will come off looking lazy/wimpy.
It's CD17 and I haven't seen a good LH surge yet on the strips this month. It is usually pretty solid on CD16. This could mean I will see a solid surge tomorrow? Yowzas - my follicular phase doesn't need to be any longer! And my temp is still low. Super odd. I think the herbs are screwing with me.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
So impressed/not impressed
So I met my DH's doc today for the will-you-be-my-new-doc appointment.
She was really calm and friendly and approachable. She offered to fax my records transferal to my old clinic and we made an extra copy for me to go in person with (since she knows they lose faxes all the time, etc.) She said a few times during the conversation - "Our priority right now is to get you pregnant!" - I loves! She even said she would look through my records when they come in to see if I'm missing any obvious test, which she could order and I could do before I leave for Asia, so the results would be ready for my new RE appt. And she offered to fax the new RE a letter explaining I'm transferring docs. Great! I'm going to call her Dr Care.
But then...
I stopped in at my old clinic for records transfer. They said it would take, "oh...one week maybe. Maybe two. It depends."
Well, this isn't the end of the world, if they haven't transferred documents by mid next week, I'll call and move my RE appt - hopefully it will only mean a week or two push out. But seriously - two weeks to print out some records? WTIF?!
I was so impressed.
She was really calm and friendly and approachable. She offered to fax my records transferal to my old clinic and we made an extra copy for me to go in person with (since she knows they lose faxes all the time, etc.) She said a few times during the conversation - "Our priority right now is to get you pregnant!" - I loves! She even said she would look through my records when they come in to see if I'm missing any obvious test, which she could order and I could do before I leave for Asia, so the results would be ready for my new RE appt. And she offered to fax the new RE a letter explaining I'm transferring docs. Great! I'm going to call her Dr Care.
But then...
I stopped in at my old clinic for records transfer. They said it would take, "oh...one week maybe. Maybe two. It depends."
I was not impressed.
Well, this isn't the end of the world, if they haven't transferred documents by mid next week, I'll call and move my RE appt - hopefully it will only mean a week or two push out. But seriously - two weeks to print out some records? WTIF?!
Monday, March 7, 2011
A small review.
I talked to Dr T tonight during acupuncture about - well, things don't seem to really be getting much better. In fact, they maybe are getting slightly worse....?
She agreed, and promised to do a full review of all my charts before next week. So that's good. I'm really looking forward to the appt with the new RE, I feel like there are a lot of things I want to get tested for, so I can put aside some of my outlandish theories to narrow down what the heck is actually wrong with me. Dr T did say she thinks about my case all the time, and what to do with me - which I thought was cute.
I think I should do some homework between now and my new RE appt. I'm going to take out 3 month fertility cure book out from the library again and get reading!
Lenten prayer buddies were assigned today, that is fun. I was assigned a real star of the Catholic infertile ladies blog world - exciting.
I would also like to give a shout out to my new blog followers - Hello Ladies! Glad you can stop by now and then!
She agreed, and promised to do a full review of all my charts before next week. So that's good. I'm really looking forward to the appt with the new RE, I feel like there are a lot of things I want to get tested for, so I can put aside some of my outlandish theories to narrow down what the heck is actually wrong with me. Dr T did say she thinks about my case all the time, and what to do with me - which I thought was cute.
I think I should do some homework between now and my new RE appt. I'm going to take out 3 month fertility cure book out from the library again and get reading!
Lenten prayer buddies were assigned today, that is fun. I was assigned a real star of the Catholic infertile ladies blog world - exciting.
I would also like to give a shout out to my new blog followers - Hello Ladies! Glad you can stop by now and then!
Bummed.
I don't know, I'm kind of bummed this morning. It's probably just the Monday morning blues (I'm never good on Mondays).
I'm starting to question whether or not acupuncture is actually working. My cycle still seems stuck around 26ish days. My skin is currently terrible (ovulation has been bad since I started herbs - and yes, I ate Dorri.tos on Friday night, which have both milk and corn, both of which disagree with me, so possibly it's my own fault). My CM seems slightly better this month, so that is good... (I did neglect to pick up some royal jelly. I balked at the price. Which is stupid, I then went out and spent tons of money on gree.ns+ and other hippie foods.) I've also been getting some pain in my nether regions I didn't have before.
Ah well. I am really really looking forward to meeting this new RE in April. I guess /scared of meeting him - what if he laughs at all my theories and brushes them aside? Yikes. We'll see.
Also, we spent yesterday with my VERY pregnant friend - as in, she's due today. I tried to not let it bother me, and all the baby talk didn't bother me toooo much... but I don't know, I had envious dreams last night, and I am grumpy this morning. I was ready to 'come out' if asked, but it seems like everyone kind of knows to steer clear of asking us anymore.
I am adjusting my 'fertility shake' recipe that I have a few mornings a week:
I'm starting to question whether or not acupuncture is actually working. My cycle still seems stuck around 26ish days. My skin is currently terrible (ovulation has been bad since I started herbs - and yes, I ate Dorri.tos on Friday night, which have both milk and corn, both of which disagree with me, so possibly it's my own fault). My CM seems slightly better this month, so that is good... (I did neglect to pick up some royal jelly. I balked at the price. Which is stupid, I then went out and spent tons of money on gree.ns+ and other hippie foods.) I've also been getting some pain in my nether regions I didn't have before.
Ah well. I am really really looking forward to meeting this new RE in April. I guess /scared of meeting him - what if he laughs at all my theories and brushes them aside? Yikes. We'll see.
Also, we spent yesterday with my VERY pregnant friend - as in, she's due today. I tried to not let it bother me, and all the baby talk didn't bother me toooo much... but I don't know, I had envious dreams last night, and I am grumpy this morning. I was ready to 'come out' if asked, but it seems like everyone kind of knows to steer clear of asking us anymore.
I am adjusting my 'fertility shake' recipe that I have a few mornings a week:
- almond milk
- banana
- hemp protein (supposed to be very alkalising)
- gre.ens+
- ground black sesame
- carob (since cocoa has caffeine :( )
- random other fruit if I have some that are suitable (i.e., kiwi)
Friday, March 4, 2011
We doin' the doctor Shuffle!
Yesterday I knocked several things off the list.
I got my Hep A/B vaccination yesterday! Check!
And while I was there, I went to my family doc's reception to ask about the referral (yes, it's been two weeks, I have been calling and talking to them on the phone sporadically for the last week), and the clinical assistant said she faxed it. Yay!
Then I mosey'd down to the Chine.se embassy - wow, what a crazy place. After an hour or two just standing around, I finally dropped off our passports.
But the bigger news is that I went with DH for his hep booster, and I met his nice family doc. DH is really pushing for me to move to her, he's very impressed with her and the clinic she is in. I'm not super impressed with my family doc, and DH is very unimpressed with my family doc's clinic.
I was sort of tepid about this change, until I met his family doc - she's really nice. And she just talked to us for like 10-15 min - she didn't rush off, there was no sign on the wall saying "Only one question per visit", she actually called DH back to answer some question and they talked on the phone - I likes. Oh, and the appt was at 6:45pm - yeeeehaw! (One warning flag though - she said "Oh, you'll probably get pg if you stop trying.". Um. I think if I have a prelim appt with her I will tell her that breaks little IF hearts when people say that.)
So I think I am going to switcheroo. The only thing holding me back was the fact that my doc is a 5 min walk from my house, and DH's doc is a 30 min walk... but that is stupid. I can deal with a 30 min walk. (My legs are not broken.)
On to even bigger news - Dr Awesome's office called me today. I have an appt! She started by saying end of March, but I told her I was abroad until mid-April, so I have an appt the week we're back from Asia! She said the first appt will be 1.5-2 hours. I will repeat - 1.5-2 hrs. Yay! That means he must actually want to talk to us (DH has to go to the appt as well - good!) and review our history. The receptionist even said they would possibly do an ultrasound that afternoon.
YAY! We spent a total of like 10 minutes talking to Dr. Bad over the last many months. Prelim appt with Dr Bad was just "Hi, I don't need to see your BBT charts, go for blood work/sonohistogram." Second appt was, "Your tests are ok, call IVF Canada to schedule an IUI". Lame. And seriously, I waited months for each appointment.
Now for the snag - I of course have to get my records transferred to the two new docs - and given how hard it was for them to fax one piece of paper, I am worried this is going to be a monster undertaking. And I leave in two weeks.
Stay tuned. :)
I got my Hep A/B vaccination yesterday! Check!
And while I was there, I went to my family doc's reception to ask about the referral (yes, it's been two weeks, I have been calling and talking to them on the phone sporadically for the last week), and the clinical assistant said she faxed it. Yay!
Then I mosey'd down to the Chine.se embassy - wow, what a crazy place. After an hour or two just standing around, I finally dropped off our passports.
But the bigger news is that I went with DH for his hep booster, and I met his nice family doc. DH is really pushing for me to move to her, he's very impressed with her and the clinic she is in. I'm not super impressed with my family doc, and DH is very unimpressed with my family doc's clinic.
I was sort of tepid about this change, until I met his family doc - she's really nice. And she just talked to us for like 10-15 min - she didn't rush off, there was no sign on the wall saying "Only one question per visit", she actually called DH back to answer some question and they talked on the phone - I likes. Oh, and the appt was at 6:45pm - yeeeehaw! (One warning flag though - she said "Oh, you'll probably get pg if you stop trying.". Um. I think if I have a prelim appt with her I will tell her that breaks little IF hearts when people say that.)
So I think I am going to switcheroo. The only thing holding me back was the fact that my doc is a 5 min walk from my house, and DH's doc is a 30 min walk... but that is stupid. I can deal with a 30 min walk. (My legs are not broken.)
On to even bigger news - Dr Awesome's office called me today. I have an appt! She started by saying end of March, but I told her I was abroad until mid-April, so I have an appt the week we're back from Asia! She said the first appt will be 1.5-2 hours. I will repeat - 1.5-2 hrs. Yay! That means he must actually want to talk to us (DH has to go to the appt as well - good!) and review our history. The receptionist even said they would possibly do an ultrasound that afternoon.
YAY! We spent a total of like 10 minutes talking to Dr. Bad over the last many months. Prelim appt with Dr Bad was just "Hi, I don't need to see your BBT charts, go for blood work/sonohistogram." Second appt was, "Your tests are ok, call IVF Canada to schedule an IUI". Lame. And seriously, I waited months for each appointment.
Now for the snag - I of course have to get my records transferred to the two new docs - and given how hard it was for them to fax one piece of paper, I am worried this is going to be a monster undertaking. And I leave in two weeks.
Stay tuned. :)
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Work Stress
It doesn't take all that much to make me stressed.
I've just been so busy at work lately, it has been non-stop. I'm using all my tricks to not stress out, but I still come home drained. Not good.
I am quite inspired by the Hatter, but I'm not quite sure I''m ready to quit. I feel like I'm still miles away from actually catching. On a good day, I don't mind work so much. On a medium day... not great. On a bad day - aick! Get me out of there!
My boss is getting preggo brain - I thought this was ok, but it has reared it's ugly head. She told me something, and today she has no memory of that and insists on something else. (sigh). It's not the hugest deal, but I look semi-retarded because I have to retract a statement to another group, and it is worrying because she refused to believe me. And she already looks like 8-9 months pg due to the twins. I don't enjoy it. Although this means she's bound to look like a whale, so maybe I will secretly enjoy that. Ha.
I joined the lenten prayer circle! Fun!
I've just been so busy at work lately, it has been non-stop. I'm using all my tricks to not stress out, but I still come home drained. Not good.
I am quite inspired by the Hatter, but I'm not quite sure I''m ready to quit. I feel like I'm still miles away from actually catching. On a good day, I don't mind work so much. On a medium day... not great. On a bad day - aick! Get me out of there!
My boss is getting preggo brain - I thought this was ok, but it has reared it's ugly head. She told me something, and today she has no memory of that and insists on something else. (sigh). It's not the hugest deal, but I look semi-retarded because I have to retract a statement to another group, and it is worrying because she refused to believe me. And she already looks like 8-9 months pg due to the twins. I don't enjoy it. Although this means she's bound to look like a whale, so maybe I will secretly enjoy that. Ha.
I joined the lenten prayer circle! Fun!
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Not much of a lion, eh?
March is supposed to come in a like a lion - but today was GREAT! Can't complain!
I was super tired after getting in late from Windsor on Sunday night, all day Monday I was super tired and sluggish and anxious. I dragged myself to the gym for a 20min workout on the elliptical - I did notice right after the workout my tongue was pink and lovely! Hrmmm... I should be working out more? Yes. Dr T agrees.
I walked to acupuncture, which was super nice. Dr T did both front and back acupuncture last night - it was great! I felt like a big puddle afterwards. Seriously, I could barely drag my puddle-self home.
I did have some night sweats last night, but I woke up this morning feeling WONDERFUL! Actually energetic! :) Yay, acupuncture!
Seeing the IF ladies on the weekend was really nice - wish I could have stayed longer, but we were on our way out of town. There were some new faces there, that was nice. One new lady said something I thought was so wise - essentially, she wouldn't let them do IVF on her until they proved that what was wrong with her could be overcome by IVF. HELLO!!! It makes so much sense. IVF is hard on the body, is expensive, and often fails. Why not treat the root of the problem?
We were at some friend's house on Sat - they have a 2.5 year old and a ~9 month old. The first one was born before our TTC trouble began, so I feel like they slipped under the radar - I love playing with them, I don't get all crusty around them. And the baby likes me!!! (They kept saying how normally she wouldn't go to strangers... I lapped it right up!) Man. I want a baby!
I was super tired after getting in late from Windsor on Sunday night, all day Monday I was super tired and sluggish and anxious. I dragged myself to the gym for a 20min workout on the elliptical - I did notice right after the workout my tongue was pink and lovely! Hrmmm... I should be working out more? Yes. Dr T agrees.
I walked to acupuncture, which was super nice. Dr T did both front and back acupuncture last night - it was great! I felt like a big puddle afterwards. Seriously, I could barely drag my puddle-self home.
I did have some night sweats last night, but I woke up this morning feeling WONDERFUL! Actually energetic! :) Yay, acupuncture!
Seeing the IF ladies on the weekend was really nice - wish I could have stayed longer, but we were on our way out of town. There were some new faces there, that was nice. One new lady said something I thought was so wise - essentially, she wouldn't let them do IVF on her until they proved that what was wrong with her could be overcome by IVF. HELLO!!! It makes so much sense. IVF is hard on the body, is expensive, and often fails. Why not treat the root of the problem?
We were at some friend's house on Sat - they have a 2.5 year old and a ~9 month old. The first one was born before our TTC trouble began, so I feel like they slipped under the radar - I love playing with them, I don't get all crusty around them. And the baby likes me!!! (They kept saying how normally she wouldn't go to strangers... I lapped it right up!) Man. I want a baby!
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