It's our 2nd anniversary today.
And all I can think about is that we've been TTC for 2 years now.
I feel so listless. I can't even figure out what to do for October's cycle, let alone fathom another few years at this. Should we go to a Napro doc? Try an IUI with cl.omid? Both of these things take so much effort.
Way back when, 2 years was going to be our cutoff. When we start the adoption process, or give up all together and live abroad for a while (not give up like start using BC, but give up like stop trying so darn hard).
If I can't have babies, I want to live a more-fun life. I've been nesting for two years now - buying a nice child-friendly house in a nice child-friendly neighbourhood. Working hard at a job I don't like to save up money for when I will hopefully be a SAHM. Categorizing each day with respect to what part of the cycle I am in.
But how long can I stay in this waiting game? Neither DH nor I are particularly happy. (With work - marriage very good, thank goodness). I've become super boring in the last two years. Which is fine if you're about to have a baby, but sort of lame if you're not.
I know many of you dear ladies eat two years of TTC for breakfast and keep on marching, but this is significant to us. Sorry for the ultra-whiny post, I probably shouldn't be allowed to blog on a Monday morning.