M's Day

So I'm not that into Mother's Day.  I don't have a very close relationship with my Mother (long story - nothing horrid), so I usually do some sort of obligatory card or something, but I'm just not that into it.

My Mom is down for the weekend - which normally means a very stressful weekend for me, but I'm trying to head into this positively.  She is at least making the effort to come down, which I give her props for.

And even though I will spend Sunday morning being wanded - well, I don't really care.  I was thinking about it today - I think it is because I have so much trouble seeing myself as a future Mother, that I don't feel a sense of loss on this day. 

I am worried about how to slip away for the wanding - haven't told me Mum yet, and don't really want to.  Perhaps my Aunt can run interference for me.  Empathy is not Mom's strong point, and really, everyone in our family has all sorts of unexpected teenage pregnancies, it will be hard for her to relate.  And then everyone would know about it.

For everyone else that does feel a sense of loss - particularly if you've had maybe a miscarriage - my heart does go out to you, and I'll be thinking of all the sad IF ladies on Sunday.

Yoga was great tonight - so nice to see the ladies, even if I did have to dash off cuz DH and Mom were waiting around the corner for me!