Hello! I am back, and slowly catching up on blogs!
The trip was very fun. The hiking was harder than I thought it would be - hills + heavy pack = hard. Even though it was a bit hard, it was still really fun. Nice hanging out with Feather (who is a mega-trooper, and is super in shape!), lovely time swimming every day in the warm lakes. :)
I had a total low blood sugar moment on day 3 of the trip. Bad news. Feather and DH offered to take some of the weight from my pack, which I am super grateful for. It was sucky - I am not so hardy. I came out of it within the hour, but that was a low point, a very tough time. Mentally I was thinking "something is wrong with me, why do I feel like this?", and I actually cried on DH's shoulder for a minute (while thinking "This is so embarrassing. Why am I crying?") . Bah.
I thought of course about IF/adoption a lot during the hiking parts, and I didn't come to any grand conclusions - but here I am, ready to take the plunge. So even though I didn't have any epiphanies, I think all the hiking allowed me to de-stress and come to a conclusion.
Conclusion: Time for Napro. I booked the intro session. It may not sound like a big deal to you dear reader, but I've been putting this off for at least a year. Dealing with all the extra administrative issues surrounding Napro sounds really hard to me.... but I've got to face facts, it is probably worth it. Reading that study about IUI+Clomid being as effective as doing nothing really sealed the deal. WTIF!
Who knows, maybe I'll have a change of heart in the next month or two and squeeze another IUI in before I actually get to see Dr Napro. But for now I am ENJOYING being on another off cycle. Sure, I am tracking CM, but it is nice not to have swollen ovaries! And no wanding! And if I want to go out for a beer with my colleagues, I will. No big deal.
Here is my wish list from Napro - I wonder how much of this is outrageous, and how much will come true?
- Better CM
- No more TEBB
- No more boob pain
- Regular luteal phase lengths
- No more early spotting (FEBB?)
- No PMS
- No menstrual pain
- No more swollen lymph node as AF is due
- Maybe better blood sugar control?