5 weeks, 3 days
DH and I went to the NaPro Intro session on Monday night! (And guess who was the presenter? Dr Nora! Hahaha - DH was not impressed.) I did not decided to start with the program given our current status, but if this doesn't work out, I want to be ready to start NaPro then. I don't want to count my chickens before they're hatched and just assume everything is going to be ok. (I did wrangle out of Dr Nora what NaPro will do for you while you're pg, and I plan on talking to my midwife about that)
There were some IF couples there, and I wanted to tell them how NaPro would be good for them, good for their health, etc.... but I don't know, I felt bad. An IF lady gave me a really dirty look (I think she heard me tell Dr Nora we're pg), so I didn't butt into their conversation after the class.
It's a funny place to be in - I still feel almost like an imposter reading all these preggo books (which I have been longing to read for so many years now!). And yet I feel tremendously guilty that I've left behind some of my favourite IF ladies.
I've been feeling quite tired and a bit dizzy now and then - but yesterday I felt fine, which started to freak me out. Is my little Appleseed ok in there? I finally had to talk some sense into myself. Just because we were
wildly IF doesn't mean the pg won't go well. I have no data showing I
am not good at pg - it is unknown. So really worrying about it at this
stage is not productive, I should just focus on the positive.
Friday we go for heartbeat check. Ai ya! It is the day before my birthday, and I've decided to work from home. If it is bad news, I won't be able to face work, I'm sure of it. Best/worst birthday news ever coming up! And then we have a trip back to my home city this weekend, so either we bring good/bad news with us. My Mom is coming too, so we'll have to figure out when/if to tell her. Pretty much once we tell her the cat's out of the bag.