And then everything went pear shaped.

So, looks like AF is here.
I am really bummed.  And crampy (short painful cramps - WTIF!) and a bit dizzy.  Bah.

While I will probably go Google things about getting your AF while pg, it is safe to say this was a failed cycle.  Poo.

I think I sort of knew this morning.  I had a really hard time forcing myself to go to work.  I left early this afternoon.  I just can't make myself care about work at times like this.  I WANT A BABY.  :(  (Plus, I had to leave and go cry, which I did in the car on the way home with poor DH on the phone)

I had a sort-of adoption dream last night.  They were handing out babies and my fertile friend got one.  I was angry, I was like that is NOT FAIR, she already has two kids and she got them easily.  But then they gave me one and I was so happy and loved it.  We are planning on going to an aoption info session in April.  Maybe the dream is a sign?  April...its so far away..... (sigh)

The dream almost makes things worse - I still remember that baby in my arms....