So normally I would wait to post until after my acupuncture appt tonight, but I'm so upset....
So today in a meeting with my boss, we were discussing two weeks ago when we'd really clashed over a few things and I think we were both really frustrated with each other, she told me I had an attitude problem.
She also made sure to mention that not only was my potential future promotion contingent on technical knowledge, it was also contingent on attitude.
Like, joke's on you, I don't CARE if I get promoted, I just want to get preggo and get the heck out of dodge!
But one doesn't say that in such meetings. I tried to give her some feedback about what in her behaviour had contributed to our clashes, but she paid no attention, she continued to do no wrong. Ugh. She even said, "I don't know if you were having problems in your personal life or what, but..." - like, yeah, my entire life since about July has been one huge personal problem!
I worry my job really is too stressful for me, and I've tried to bring this up a few times, and she seems to understand at the time, but I don't think she gets it. She really does live for work, ok for her, but I don't want to do that.
If we are starting adoption in September and it may take two years after that.... do I want to work there that long? The money is good is a serious reason to stay... and again, a promotion would mean more money, which is better for my family (we're really trying to sock it away now in preparation of me potentially not working), but is it worth it?!?
Augh! I am violating my 'do not think about work at home' rule tonight! Augh! I do not enjoy confrontation, and I'm sure I'll be replaying this in my head all night. Hopefully Dr T can release this stress with a needle!